Date: Monday, June 8, 2009
Time: 3:23 PM

I used to love vacations, especially after I graduated high school. Being on vacation meant lounging around, doing nothing school-related, & FINALLY having enough time to meet up with friends.

In my group of friends, I'm usually the one who plans every detail about our barkada round-abouts. I have to seek out my friends, contact them and tell them the FYIs. Honestly, this is getting so hard to do nowadays.

I don't understand, I mean, I would get it if classes are on-going. At least, if we have classes, we could always use "I have class/group work/loads of homeworks/reports/insert-school-related-alibis-here" as an excuse to not come, but come on now. It's still vacay and no one seems interested in meeting up.

I've heard them say "I miss hanging out!", "Miss ko na din kayo..", "Labas tayo!" once too often, but it just feels like these are being thrown around just for the sake of saying it. Never meant. Never wanted to exert any effort.

I'm a Nursing student, and I have to study every single body part and their functions, memorize 100+ drug names and their contraindications, force my brain to retain names of microorganisms which look kawaii on agar plates but are dangerous when inhaled, and I STILL HAVE TIME TO PLAN.

WHY?

Because I want to. Because it's important to me. Because you guys keep me sane and grounded and stupidly happy.

I want spontaneity. Heck, we're all legal now. What's making it all so hard? Doesn't seeing each other after a grueling semester appeal to any of you now? Effort, effort! Relationships don't grow on trees.

Bottomline is I miss you guys. I don't understand why you're making it so hard for us to see each other. Why are you guys giving me such a grueling time arranging and rescheduling if you will just not go? It's frustrating. I just want to see you. I'm not just doing it for myself, I know that deeeeep down inside, a little bit of normality which the barkada brings refreshes OUR parched minds and lives.

I swear, I'm very stressed about this. I've been just trying to get us all together for a long time now, and no one would give in.:(

Please please please. Let's all pitch in and do this. Or maybe we can just call it a day and see each other, say, by Christmastime (which will probably not happen as well)?

Kayo na paimportante. (But you are important naman talaga. PERO OA KAYO HA! GARRR.) 0have left cookies for me